Starting Over... Again

I lost weight last year.  A good bit.  I started running and began to feel strong and confident.  But sadly, I let myself gain most of it back.  And with the weight gain, the lack of confidence and discouragement returned as well.

It is hard to admit that to myself or to anyone else.  Though the words aren't easy to say I must face the fact that I am almost right back where I started.  I try to console myself.  I look in the mirror and I say to myself that it isn't that much.  I'm not that big.  I don't look that bad.  I'm not out of control.   

But I am fooling myself.  The truth is I haven't committed myself to exercising at all lately or eating healthy.  Just hit or miss.  Whatever I feel like at the time.   Just a reaction to each day. 

Today I'm climbing back up.  It won't be easy but I liked feeling strong and confident.  I liked getting thinner, healthier, and more self controlled.  I must remember those feelings and not the discouraging ones I feel now.

Phillipians 4:8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

Controlling our thoughts is so important to our wellbeing.  Satan would love nothing more than to continue to have us dwell on the negative.  The what ifs, the can't dos, the maybes.  But I suggest we leave these thoughts behind and concentrate on the positive things in our lives. 

I might not be able to control what goes on in the world around me.  But I can certainly control my life.  Right now.  And now I choose to take control of my life once again.  I choose to think thoughts that will propel me forward and not punch me in the stomach and push me backward. 

Today I will begin again.  Will you join me?